It seems like forever since I've posted anything. I kind of has been. I've missed venting. I've had a bad couple of weeks. Let's recap. Thursday before Christmas I was on my way to my very first Fit Club with Beachbody. As I was sitting at a stop light waiting patiently for the red light to turn green, I was rear-ended. At first I was fine. No pain, no issues, nothing. I ended up not making to Fit Club. The next day I worked out and felt okay. Then my husband and I decided to grab a sandwich for lunch, I got so sick almost immediately after eating it. I began to get dizzy, nausious, and extremely tired. I knew something wasn't right with me. I went to see my chiropractor the week after new years. Come to find out, I had a bad place between my shoulder blades. When I say bad, I don't know the technical term for it, when he pushed on my upper back to adjust it, I had a horrible sharp pain shoot down my left arm which made it tingle. Not good at all. After that, I went down hill quick. I felt very tired, sick to my stomach, just not good. I didn't do anything for the rest of that day. It was horrible. I was miserable. I tried working out the next day but got sick immediately after I worked out. That's when I realized, I was not going to be able to do anything until I started feeling better. So I haven't felt like doing ANYTHING for 2 weeks. I became very depressed. I was horrible. I felt unable to control myself. I was very emotional, I would get sick after eating certain foods, I would get fatigued quickly, horrible. I had absolutely no control of any of these symptoms. I just basically stopped everything. I was miserable. I felt horrible inside and out. So this is why I haven't posted in a while.
Finally the past couple of days I've noticed I'm feeling better. I find myself not getting sick anymore, I'm getting my energy back, I'm actually mentally preparing for working out when the kids go back to school on Tuesday, I'm able to concentrate better and stay focused better. If anyone ever hits me again, I think I might just have to crawl in a corner and stay there. I don't ever want to experience anything like this again. I haven't felt this bad since being pregnant or maybe after giving birth to our twins.
After this experience, I've decided it's time to get really serious about my body. I HAVE to make some changes. I'm sick and tired of feeling so bad about how I look. I'm sick of having such a low self esteem. My husband even notices it and hates it. I get sick when I look in the mirror. I know it can't be as bad as what I see, but I'm the one that has to see it. I have to fix this. So I am going to take my measurements and some new pictures of myself Tuesday morning before I workout and post everything. I'm hoping by putting myself out there and posting my progress, I will hold myself more accountable and if anyone is really following this, they will help hold me accountable. I want to see some big changes in the next 30 days. That means I have to count my calories, watch my water intake, eat clean & lean and workout according to my calendar. I'm also going to post my calendar on here so I know what I'm supposed to be doing and when. I'm also going to post my goals and deadline. I must make some serious changes. If I'm going to help other people change their lives, I have to start with my own. I'd like to invite others to join me. I want to start a challenge group. If I could find some people who want to get fit and healthy, we could do it together. I'd love to share this journey with somone.
Wow, it's amazing how much better I feel just laying everything out there. Even if I'm the only one who ever reads this. Getting this stuff off my chest really does feel better. So now that's it's 10:00 I'm off to bed. Tuesday is coming. I'm actually getting excited. Wish me luck :)
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